I DUN LIKE TO STUDY!!!! but then again can i choose not to study...
Sunday, June 7, 2009 @ 11:56 PM
its great to know that there's someone out there who is always looking out for you its great to know how important you mean to the people around you its great to know the countless blessings in my life its great to feel alive
taking a deep breath, listen to some slow music, look around you and start to be thankful for the things that you have, the peole that loved you, care for you, always there for you, and you start to see the reason for your existence. i guess when i get complacent and feels that life sucks, its probably becuase i lost the attitude of aprreciating the things/ppl that is around me.
@ 10:56 PM
i like the feeling of staying up late at night, its so quiet, peaceful, and i feel real at night, i dislike me during the day, often pissed off with small things, irritated, angry, the hot weather makes everything even worse. i dun like the hols, was looking forward to it but now its here, i wish there was school, keep your mind distracted, i have too much time that i spend most of the time thinking of what to do with my time, it sucks la. nothing to do. boredom kills. everyone seems so busy.busy with school,cca,chalets,pw. argh. i have nothing to do! excluding the need to study. i dun like to study, or maybe its not that i dun like to study,its just that i dun have the motivation to keep studying, i can do one maths qns for one whole day.no drive, i need a studying partner! but eveyone is so busy. argh its killing me. somehow blogging has the power to make one feel better. bottling too much things inside. far too much. argh. i need to stop wasting my youth away, like seriously how much longer do i have on this earth. ay. no use lying on bed all day long, watchign TV non-stop knowing there's endless of things out there that u need to do, i guess i escape too much from reality. or maybe its because reality forces me to do things i dislike which is totally not me. i dun like to do things which i dun enjoy, i wan to do things i enjoy,but somehow its kind of hard, especially when you live in a world where your parents, teachers, friends have a certain expectations on u.i just want to be true to myself. to do what i like. and live life the way i like, but somehow there always certain constraints that hold you back. the climb depicts how i feel now. its a beautiful song. ppl always say that there will be a moment in life where you start to figure out who your really are, probably that's why im all so confused now. figuring out things about myself that i dunno, figuring out what life means to me, figuring out my purpose of existence. somehow putting my emotions into words seems to help my mind calm for a second. its the hols yet my mind has not yet been in the state of calmness. i can't seem to consolidate my thoughts, probably too much load on my mind yet to be taken off. okie, my aim for hols is to follow through and complete my study plan & to have at least on day out with bffs and to run at least once every week. i think lack of exercise is another reason why im feeling so lerthagic recently, i need to burn that extra fats accumulating! its making me feel so heavy and burdened! i need to get my life back, have been visionless for the past one week, i accomplished zero. i need to get back on track, get that fighting spirit back, one of the most meaningful phrase i will always keep close to my heart is the phrase Miss Chionh wrote in the card she gave all of us last year, your silent strength is an inspiration to many. im gonna keep believing in it and keep pulling myself togehther each time i fall apart. oh, and something i would really like to work on and change about myself is to stop hurting closed ones with my words. i've been hurting them far too much, i speak without thinking and its stupid and immature! its hard because im so used to it, im not those kind of ppl u expect to hear nice things about, ppl who are close to me are always hurt by my words, and it sucks la, cause at the end of the day it hurts even more knowing that they are hurt by what i say. argh i need to change!and another thing i prob need to work on is feeling good about myself, im prob too demanding of myself, i cannot always view myself in the negative light, its good sometimes to be real with yourself and know your weakness and work on them, but over condemnation is no no good! i need to love myself for whom i am, yea. and i need to put my words into action, i know myself that i love my parents alot, but i need to show it to them, sometimes humans are really dumb, its like you know i love u can le, but that alone is not enough, cause actions speak louder than words, ppl needs to be assures of being loved. yea. so i need to show more love, father's day is coming, looking forward to it! ok fight on fight on fight on! im going to ace for mid year=]] im so going to do so! argh, it feels so much better after blogging! its gonna keep getting better=] i will grow from my previous mistakes=]]]
Sunday, May 24, 2009 @ 8:04 PM
haha xinpei!! meet up soon! can't wait fo the hols too...
sick of school.. havent even touch my maths tutorial...graphing sucks. i don't see how knowing how to draw graphs would benefit me in the future ==
Wednesday, May 20, 2009 @ 7:17 PM
sick of my life.
hypocrites. weirdos. MORE WEIRDOS.
let me be void of emotions.
don't come near me.
let me be alone.
and mug to death,
why bother changing my life.
when there's always disappointment.....
-hutella
Tuesday, May 19, 2009 @ 7:31 PM
i don't want to go to school tmr.. i don't want don't want don't want.. i want my holidays...
haha this is freaking funny..hahaha
Wednesday, May 13, 2009 @ 9:21 PM
life is gonna get better each day =]]
EPISODE 4
Monday, May 4, 2009 @ 4:02 PM
5 MORE DAYS! and hutu will be free :) SO GLAD THAT NEXT MONDAY IS A HOLIDAY! WOHOOOOOOOOOO.
-Hutu Tribe Leader
We're all oddballs.. BUT!! God loves us anyway!
EPISODE 3
Sunday, April 26, 2009 @ 8:07 PM
I MIGHT WIN THE DEMONS! :D Looking forward to the mission trip :D:D Miss phs people. PHS IS THE BEST!
-Hutella
HUTELLA'S STRUGGLE EPISODE 2
Friday, April 10, 2009 @ 9:01 PM
Episode 2.
HUTELLA THE ALMIGHTY IS SICK. :( The demons are winning....
Ring-a-ding!
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